WIFE CRY

I struggled for your attention. I fought to have ALL of you back. But to see you juggle life and distort your own sense – for what? for me? – that’s NOT what I wanted.

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When I said “I didn’t want to live out the pressures of your life,” it wasn’t an expression of non-support. I meant it as I said it. I have always been a book hoping to be read. But this time, I speak plainly.

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I didn’t intend to be mean when I cried, “I want a life of my own.” I actually meant, “I want you to have a life apart from mine.”

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I have been your world. I don’t resent that. It is all that a woman could ever want. BUT don’t take that as an obligation. You don’t have to.

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It pains me to see you want to take care of me, like you were wont to, when we know, we both HAVE to do other things. That is the price of being more than ordinary.

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Honestly, it hurts me more to feel I’m getting in the way. Please don’t make me feel vulnerable. I have always been able to take care of myself.

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Relive the times. I WAS never powerless. Perhaps, I only enjoyed being your princess for the last 12 years. But believe me, I can still be that person you fell for, in the first place.

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Live with it. I want it. I have so decided it to be so. You live your dreams. You are capable of becoming who YOU want to be.

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You remain faultless in my eyes – everything anyone could ever want. The little things I said I missed, those are trivial – I am learning to live without them, without harping on you.

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This is my share of coping with the inevitable change of what may be the last lap of life. My little girl says “I am the BEST mom there is in the whole CITY…” I remain to be so.

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Finally, I am proud to be the supportive wife. I am comfortable with my own gains and merits. I’ll grow old with you wherever life may LEAD us.