STRAIGHT LINE

...to this day, i have not found the one missing piece -- that one unknown -- that will fill the hollow in my chest,keep my heartbeat still, and stop the longing.  I get lonely amidst the intensity & perfection.

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A new friend asked:  how will you describe your life in an adjective?  I fumbled. Now, how do I answer that?  Fulfilled, yes. That would be the one single word, despite the puzzle.

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There is too much structure.  Not that I detest that -- in fact, I have gotten used to the pattern--learned it, to be exact. Order gave me success.

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But, inside I am really an adventurer. I want to experience life, minus the conventions.  I want to commit mistakes.  But, I can't pay the price.  Not anymore.

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And so here I am, in a straight line.  Better here, than be lost.  Better here, than fall.  At least here, I am never alone.