I have never written about my kids, I noticed. It’s because, everything is sacred – I hold the imprint of every second of their lives close to my heart -- so near, nobody dares touch them.
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My Yari once said: “You are the best mommy in the whole…CITY.” She meant it more grandly. But, yeah, I’m not a perfect mom. I just can’t get the right mix until now.
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I want my kids to be themselves. I want them to have a better, richer experience. I hope I am doing my job well. It’s difficult to be a mother.
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Heloise, I raised by the book. I gave her the best of myself. I gave up a lot of opportunities for her sake. She is a big challenge, bigger than all my feats.
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Giving it my all and my best isn’t enough, I see. Now, Yari does not get enough, because in not giving, I change her fate.
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I love my children. I can be faulted for this love. But, having lost a child yet unborn once, I can’t risk not loving more.
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